He's Gone...

Sometimes, letting go... isn't as difficult as I thought it would be. I thought I would burst out in tears when he leaves... but I didnt, even while I was watching that backview which got smaller and smaller till it got out of sight. Just that dull aching pain in the heart... bearable though...

Will be moving on to a new phase of my life very soon...

Really, I don't know what our future holds... whatever it is, I just hope that this relationship would still be very much based on truth and honesty rather than lies and deceits. I do not want a tainted relationship... I want to be able to look into his eyes when we talk and not see the slightest bit of guilt and remorse lingering... where we could laugh and be happy from the bottom of our hearts without feeling sorry that we've let each other or any other people down.

Is that ever possible with 2 years of separation and those short intermittent meetings? I don't know... but I certainly hope it is possible. But if he ever gets lonely& things happen... I think I'll understand... & I know I'll back out too... No point hanging around when things get to that stage right?

No matter what the future holds, I just know that I've tried my very best... and will continue to do so... But whether or not my efforts will pay off or be appreciated is entirely not within my control. I just hope, this time round, he'll be the man to prove me wrong... That there are still men who are different.