Is it us or what?

Look around you. Do you find friends, friends of friends or even family members who get themselves all emotionally beaten up over one person? Sometimes, you can't help but wonder why.

Hey, I'm no exception too. I get myself all uptight over certain issues at times and very often, over men who are not worth that bit of effort at all. At that point of time, when I was IN it, I was often too blind to read the signs... Telling signs which should have sounded off the alarm bells in my head if I had been more careful and less blind. Often, it would dawn on me retrospectively... how blind and stupid I had been and how I probably could have avoided the heartache had I been more rational.

I would like to think that a relationship should be painless or at least carry minimal pain and hurt. I mean how could one think of hurting the one they love and who loves them so much? It's almost unthinkable, isn't it?

I've been hurt, definitely but I've also hurt in the process... Either ways, it doesn't feel good, getting hurt and hurting people.

Thinking of it again now, I think I had been vulnerable only because I allowed myself to be... to be hurt... I suppose we all could, in one way or another, try to be more rational when it comes to dealing with relationships. Like how we should know better than to hold on to something which doesn't do us any good anymore. And how we know we actually could live better without that someone but somehow, we are unwilling to let go in the name of "the good old times" and "he USED to be very sweet".

People... when it's time to let go, you have to let go. We can't possibly be living our lives thinking that things would change for the better when we have been proven otherwise time and again. It's toxic... toxic to keep holding on to something, in which deep in our hearts, already know is beyond hope...