Questions...
Rainy nights always makes me feel nostalgic... where I always think back... reminiscing the good old times with people who used to be very dear to me... who used to be very close in my heart... but no longer in my life now...
I always feel this tinge of regret whenever I think of them... What went wrong? Is it me, is it them or was it just how it was meant to be?
Would things have been different if only I had cast my pride aside, if only I had tried harder? Or would the outcome still be the same no matter how hard I try?
At times, I really wish I could see the future... & I'll know what life has in store for me... but yet at the same time, I'm apprehensive... Would I be able to handle the truth? Would what I see be what I want? If not, would I be able to deal with the cold hard truth...?
I miss alot of people right now... people whom meant alot to me at one point or another in my life... These people taught me alot about life... even now that they are gone... they are still on my mind... always...
I appear cool, calm, collected... but am I really like this? Or is it just a facade?
I am afraid of getting hurt... afraid of being upset again... afraid of being abandoned...
I am scared... really scared... I am very vulnerable... does anyone know? Will there ever be someone whom I can totally trust... who will honour me, treasure me, love me forever?
Is that too much to ask for? Don't I deserve that?
Would you be the one? Would you always be there for me? Would you?
I wonder...
I always feel this tinge of regret whenever I think of them... What went wrong? Is it me, is it them or was it just how it was meant to be?
Would things have been different if only I had cast my pride aside, if only I had tried harder? Or would the outcome still be the same no matter how hard I try?
At times, I really wish I could see the future... & I'll know what life has in store for me... but yet at the same time, I'm apprehensive... Would I be able to handle the truth? Would what I see be what I want? If not, would I be able to deal with the cold hard truth...?
I miss alot of people right now... people whom meant alot to me at one point or another in my life... These people taught me alot about life... even now that they are gone... they are still on my mind... always...
I appear cool, calm, collected... but am I really like this? Or is it just a facade?
I am afraid of getting hurt... afraid of being upset again... afraid of being abandoned...
I am scared... really scared... I am very vulnerable... does anyone know? Will there ever be someone whom I can totally trust... who will honour me, treasure me, love me forever?
Is that too much to ask for? Don't I deserve that?
Would you be the one? Would you always be there for me? Would you?
I wonder...
posted by paradox-is-me at 8:52 AM
2 Comments:
I don't know how much you trust me, but I do treasure you a lot & love you to quite an extent, BUT i know you aint refering to pple like me. *sob*
Nevertheless, it is normal to feel vulnerable from time to time so don't fret dear. Things happen for a reason and they are probable meant to be. You are lovely as you are, treasure your unique ways, that's the beauty of nature.
Idiot Cupid
=) you always say the sweetest things in the most appropriate moments... elaine is a lucky gal! But you're a even luckier guy to have found her! Haha... Luv u too, my big fat fren
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