You're the Best
What kind of men would make me happy? - This is a question always posted to me by many people. I used to think I have the perfect answer to that question. Not anymore, I realised.
I used to think that a very intelligent and career-driven man would be the kind of man for me. Men who are able to keep me mentally stimulated... who are able to share with me lots of things which I never knew... I often forgot the other side of the equation. Career-driven = less time for me. Career-driven = Me always playing 2nd fiddle.
As time passes, as I gain more and more life experiences, I am starting to realise that these qualities in a man doesn't necessarily make me happy. While aiming for the skies, I often neglect the fact that the best is often just right in front of me, waiting there for me all along.
It's time I reflect on my personal values and sort out my wants. The wants in life which would fulfill me spiritually and emotionally, rather than materially and social-status wise.
I've finally came to terms with myself, with the fact that maybe what I want is that simple afterall. I've started a new phase of my life with that certain someone. Someone whom I simply never thought I would fall for all my life. Not that he's not worthy, just that I always thought I wanted someone different.
I have to admit that he has done many things for me, things which no one has done for me in the longest time. It isn't anything right out of a children's fairytale book or totally romantic. It's just nicely warm and fills me with this oddly familiar feeling.
I have been contemplating for the longest time whether this is really what I want. I made up my mind to take the plunge. To step into the unknown and to start seeing him. He has been the sweetest to me, especially in times when I was absolutely down. When no one dared to talk to me, he was the only one who showed me support.
I suppose I owe him this much. For the longest time, I have not dared to come to terms with my own feelings, always brushing it aside, thinking that it's just a passing phase. Apparently it isn't. If anything has changed at all, it's certainly the fact that I feel even more strongly for him now. I suppose I wouldn't have had all of this happening now if not for the fact that my LDR ended. In a way, it ended for a good reason. And it truly signified the start of a new beginning and new life for me.
A life which is probably something which I wanted deep down all along, a love which I've always wanted but never dared accept.
I don't want to think too much of what lies ahead, rather, I just want to bask in his love and at the same time, shower him with all my love too.
Dear, you have brightened up those dull dull days of mine with your bright smile and care & concern for me. I'm really thankful that I found you.
You're the best... my best by far =) Love you.
I used to think that a very intelligent and career-driven man would be the kind of man for me. Men who are able to keep me mentally stimulated... who are able to share with me lots of things which I never knew... I often forgot the other side of the equation. Career-driven = less time for me. Career-driven = Me always playing 2nd fiddle.
As time passes, as I gain more and more life experiences, I am starting to realise that these qualities in a man doesn't necessarily make me happy. While aiming for the skies, I often neglect the fact that the best is often just right in front of me, waiting there for me all along.
It's time I reflect on my personal values and sort out my wants. The wants in life which would fulfill me spiritually and emotionally, rather than materially and social-status wise.
I've finally came to terms with myself, with the fact that maybe what I want is that simple afterall. I've started a new phase of my life with that certain someone. Someone whom I simply never thought I would fall for all my life. Not that he's not worthy, just that I always thought I wanted someone different.
I have to admit that he has done many things for me, things which no one has done for me in the longest time. It isn't anything right out of a children's fairytale book or totally romantic. It's just nicely warm and fills me with this oddly familiar feeling.
I have been contemplating for the longest time whether this is really what I want. I made up my mind to take the plunge. To step into the unknown and to start seeing him. He has been the sweetest to me, especially in times when I was absolutely down. When no one dared to talk to me, he was the only one who showed me support.
I suppose I owe him this much. For the longest time, I have not dared to come to terms with my own feelings, always brushing it aside, thinking that it's just a passing phase. Apparently it isn't. If anything has changed at all, it's certainly the fact that I feel even more strongly for him now. I suppose I wouldn't have had all of this happening now if not for the fact that my LDR ended. In a way, it ended for a good reason. And it truly signified the start of a new beginning and new life for me.
A life which is probably something which I wanted deep down all along, a love which I've always wanted but never dared accept.
I don't want to think too much of what lies ahead, rather, I just want to bask in his love and at the same time, shower him with all my love too.
Dear, you have brightened up those dull dull days of mine with your bright smile and care & concern for me. I'm really thankful that I found you.
You're the best... my best by far =) Love you.
posted by paradox-is-me at 10:29 PM
2 Comments:
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idiot.
im glad that you are happie now.. smile always! lurve ur smile..
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