Of Friendships & Relationships

When I a little girl, my mother used to tell me "The truest friends you'll ever make are those whom are by your side now."

As the years pass & I slowly grow up... what my mother told me started to make sense.

With each friend who betrays me, I learn to appreciate the ones I have even more...

But somehow, these mean people whom I thought were my friends have made me more emotion-less each time they deal me with a blow... The me in the past would bawl my eyes out and ask myself "Why?" over and over again. In comparison, the me now would just shrug my shoulders and then make a mental note to avoid that person if I can help it...

Have I become more and more jaded or have I just wised-up? I choose to believe it's the later.

Same goes for love... In the past, when I found out my bf had betrayed me, I would be so totally devastated... Now, it's a different story. Not that I wouldn't be upset, but I've somehow, along the way, picked up the ability to move on at light speed. I don't like to dwell on the past... and as a form of defence mechanism, I move on and I do so really fast.

What has caused the change in me? Is it for the better or is it making me a less feeling person? Perhaps sometimes, I should just castaway my "safety net" so that I can fully appreciate what life has in store for me...