In life, all of us are often forced to make the most daunting decisions ever. Decisions which could determine how we would lead our lives later on.
Decisions made are very much dependent on various factors like our upbringing, social circle, personal values etc etc.
However, there are still many amongst us, who do things as they wish, often neglecting the feelings of those around them. They often forget that those around them, have feelings too.
It's a good thing to know how to love youself. However, sometimes we could be over-doing it, to the extend that we no longer take others into consideration, pursuing only what we believe would make us happy. What we believe, however, often is not what usually happens. Envisioning is one thing, the chance of it actually happening, is another.
It would be great if we all could do as we wish, regardless of what expectations, others and the society has of us. Sadly, we can't. At least most of us can't. We can't, not because we really can't but because we are more humane. Because we somehow care. Because deep down in us, there's still this goodness which exists. That we know we should never ever bite the hand that feeds us. Nor should we hurt the ones who truly care about us by casting our attention wrongly on those who don't give a damn about us in the first place.
It's never easy to find people who truly truly care about us from deep down within. Who would really bear the pain of lossing us one day when we are finally gone. Thus, shouldn't we all be grateful that there's at least a handful of these people who exists; the handful whom complete our lives; whom wants nothing but the best for us; whom knows when to be encouraging and when to be harsh?
The handful of those probably includes people like our family, our other halves, our closest friends. These people truly care and these people are able to see what is best for us when we are sometimes so blinded. However, words which mean well and said with good intentions, more often then not, fall on deaf ears.
Just because others say things which isn't something you want to hear, means they are out to harm you or that they do not want to see you attain happiness. It's the truest friends and people who truly care, who have the guts to tell you exactly what you should hear rather than what you want to hear.
What should be said has already been said. Maybe it's time to do what has to be done. Whatever the decision is, I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart. However, you probably also know that once the ultimatum is issued, the consequences will be dire too. I really do not wish to judge but then again, my conscience already has this pre-determined notion of what's right and what's wrong. You make one decision, you lose all but hopefully, gain you the "love of your life". You make another decision, you probably gain all but lose the "it could have been him"...
Whatever decision made, I just want to know that I truly wish you all the best. Just that I probably wouldn't be around anymore if the path which I feel you shouldn't take, is taken. Not because I don't care. But because I cannot bring myself to truly care for someone who can so cold-bloodedly destroy everything and shatter the very foundation of what I thought would be the start to a great lifelong companionship. If it really is what you thought it is, that you went into it, not knowing what was in store for you. Then I say good for you that you have finally woken up and know what you want. But also, in the process, hurt many others and destroyed the good faith which most have placed on you.
It's so very much like playing "Show Hand". Either you win all, or you lose all. This gamble is yours to take. I've said my piece and I wouldn't and shouldn't say anymore from now on. You win, good for you. If you lose it all, then I'm sorry. Some things in life are just irreversible and things will never be the same again.
No matter what it is, I just want to thank you for the many many years of good times, happy laughter, true heartaches and shoulder you offered to me when I needed one. I'm just sorry that this time round, it's beyond me to offer you mine.
Take care...
*It's sad... so sad... As in my dreams, I often see us growing old together, having the toothless grin... and feeling comforted knowing that the other 2 will be around for each other when one passes on first... Looks like now, it's really nothing but a dream...*
Decisions made are very much dependent on various factors like our upbringing, social circle, personal values etc etc.
However, there are still many amongst us, who do things as they wish, often neglecting the feelings of those around them. They often forget that those around them, have feelings too.
It's a good thing to know how to love youself. However, sometimes we could be over-doing it, to the extend that we no longer take others into consideration, pursuing only what we believe would make us happy. What we believe, however, often is not what usually happens. Envisioning is one thing, the chance of it actually happening, is another.
It would be great if we all could do as we wish, regardless of what expectations, others and the society has of us. Sadly, we can't. At least most of us can't. We can't, not because we really can't but because we are more humane. Because we somehow care. Because deep down in us, there's still this goodness which exists. That we know we should never ever bite the hand that feeds us. Nor should we hurt the ones who truly care about us by casting our attention wrongly on those who don't give a damn about us in the first place.
It's never easy to find people who truly truly care about us from deep down within. Who would really bear the pain of lossing us one day when we are finally gone. Thus, shouldn't we all be grateful that there's at least a handful of these people who exists; the handful whom complete our lives; whom wants nothing but the best for us; whom knows when to be encouraging and when to be harsh?
The handful of those probably includes people like our family, our other halves, our closest friends. These people truly care and these people are able to see what is best for us when we are sometimes so blinded. However, words which mean well and said with good intentions, more often then not, fall on deaf ears.
Just because others say things which isn't something you want to hear, means they are out to harm you or that they do not want to see you attain happiness. It's the truest friends and people who truly care, who have the guts to tell you exactly what you should hear rather than what you want to hear.
What should be said has already been said. Maybe it's time to do what has to be done. Whatever the decision is, I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart. However, you probably also know that once the ultimatum is issued, the consequences will be dire too. I really do not wish to judge but then again, my conscience already has this pre-determined notion of what's right and what's wrong. You make one decision, you lose all but hopefully, gain you the "love of your life". You make another decision, you probably gain all but lose the "it could have been him"...
Whatever decision made, I just want to know that I truly wish you all the best. Just that I probably wouldn't be around anymore if the path which I feel you shouldn't take, is taken. Not because I don't care. But because I cannot bring myself to truly care for someone who can so cold-bloodedly destroy everything and shatter the very foundation of what I thought would be the start to a great lifelong companionship. If it really is what you thought it is, that you went into it, not knowing what was in store for you. Then I say good for you that you have finally woken up and know what you want. But also, in the process, hurt many others and destroyed the good faith which most have placed on you.
It's so very much like playing "Show Hand". Either you win all, or you lose all. This gamble is yours to take. I've said my piece and I wouldn't and shouldn't say anymore from now on. You win, good for you. If you lose it all, then I'm sorry. Some things in life are just irreversible and things will never be the same again.
No matter what it is, I just want to thank you for the many many years of good times, happy laughter, true heartaches and shoulder you offered to me when I needed one. I'm just sorry that this time round, it's beyond me to offer you mine.
Take care...
*It's sad... so sad... As in my dreams, I often see us growing old together, having the toothless grin... and feeling comforted knowing that the other 2 will be around for each other when one passes on first... Looks like now, it's really nothing but a dream...*
posted by paradox-is-me at 1:19 AM
1 Comments:
all i can sae is i hope n pray. dat a mistake made will not be deepened further. but 'hope' is alwix a dangerous ting. . so believe it or not, ive been praying every nw n then inside moi heart. .
we fight, we quarrel, haf cold wars for mths and maybe even yrs, but this frenship will never break alrite? we all make mistakes. . everybody deserves a 2nd chance smehw, smedae along our lives. . . it cld be a deep mistake, a grave mistake or a tiny mistake..but most imptly, we hafta learn frm dat mistake...
tis comment is for all of us. . not jux for u, not jux for her, but oso for me. . for us. .
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