Finally...

See! So pretty right... finally decided to eat it... but hey, I managed to remove the beautiful ribbon without untying it wahahaha...



Pretty Little Things

Morale Booster

Received this sweet box of morale booster from a dear friend... Thing is... it's so pretty, I can't bear to untie the ribbon and eat it...



All Wrapped up

Gibberish

Have been very happy recently... don't know why... been mugging for exams... But somehow, I just feel more at peace with myself... no more of those 'what-ifs' questions hanging around... It's like I just woke up one day & found all the answers to the questions I had all these while...

I'm happy now & again, life's good... I embraced everything which came my way... good or bad... I'm glad they happened... The lawsuit was successful... I'm glad this matter has finally come to an end... It's a closure for my family & I... Finally, we're able to get on with our lives... Closure is good... I'm glad.

Totally Draining Day...

Today's like one of the days where I feel really exhausted... as in both physically & mentally...

We were going through the past year questions in school and the funniest thing was not a single one of us had the same answers...

I thought he would be able to help... but it turns out he didn't cover that topic back in those days... Sighz... where's all the help when you really need them?

I swear I was freaking stressed & it got to this point where I was totally braindead... yes, braindead!

He promised to bring me out for ice-cream or dessert when the going gets worse... It did & I asked if the 'offer' was still 'valid'... I was really just so bored that I had to tease someone... He was the most convenient target then... & to be honest, I didn't think he would mean it...

Guess what... He really did bought me ice-cream & sent it right to me... and funny how both flavours were amongst my fave... He really made my day... I fell into deep sleep after devouring almost half a tub...

Here I'm now, all awake, recharged and ready to take on the world! Shall continue with my revision soon... & I'm really thankful that there're people around me who're so sweet and thoughtful... These people make me day =)

I could fly away...

I wish I could fly away...
To a faraway land...
Where nobody knows me...
Where I am free to do as my heart desires...
Probably somewhere where I could swim with the dolphins all day long...
Lie on the beach and enjoy the warm rays of the sun...
When night falls, stargazing is all I do...
I wish I could...



My Dream

Isit such a big deal anyway?

Caught the movie "40 year old Virgin" over the weekend.

I have not, in the longest time, watched such an entertaining movie. There's practically something hilarious in every single scene, both the dialogue & the acting!

As the name suggests, it's a movie about a 40 year old virgin. Andy, the main character had never had any sexual encounters despite the fact that he's already 40. As a result, his group of friends tried to lend a helping hand in getting him laid, not without hilarious happenings. As all romantic movie does, this one ended happily where he finally met the woman he loves, got married & finally put an end to his days as a virgin.

But on a more srious note, I don't see what's the big deal about being a virgin... I mean I'm not like against premarital sex or something... I, personally, do not see anything wrong with being intimate with the one you love... However, there's also nothing wrong if someone chooses to remain one until they're ready for it. It's all a personal choice, I feel.

In today's society, people get all tickled when they hear of someone who's still a virgin... Honestly, what's the big deal? Just because they do not belong to the majority of the population who aren't virgins, doesn't mean they have to be subjected to ridicules of such. So grow up people... in fact, we should respect them for having the balls to stick to their decisions though they know that it wouldn't be easy (with all the temptations around). And for this, I salute them!

Let's just go with the flow, shall we?

A spate of recent events left me feeling very jaded especially where affairs of the heart is concerned.

I always tell myself that I can all the same lead a very happy and fulfilling life without a man in my life. I tell myself that I can be even happier alone and enjoy every single perk that comes with being single...

Yes, I'm happy now. Yes, I'm all free to do all I want, all that I desire... but somehow, something's missing... I wonder if it's the repercussions of being in long-term relationships, one after another. I've never really given myself a break after my previous breakups to fully recover and mourn for the failed relationships.

I always efficiently get myself attached again within the next 3 mths & I noticed a pattern. With the exception of my first bf, all the other 3 became my bfs mainly because they were there for me during my lowest point after a breakup. They were the ones who spent time with me, did sweet things for me, talked to me till late into the night, brought me out to take my mind off things...

Perhaps, I took them as rebounds without realising it (and definitely without intent). That could be the reason why all of the previous relationships didn't really work... though 2 ended as a result of a 3rd party that my exes had, I can't help but think that probably, I subconsciously willed them to do so through my actions.

Because of this realisation, I stopped myself from dating new people after my recent breakup in August. I jus immersed myself in schoolwork, went out with gfs and came wkends, I simply just lazed around at home or spend time with my family.

I wanted to stop myself from repeating the same mistakes over and over and over again... It's time to learn.

Though now I have met this new guy, who seems to be really nice, whom I feel very comfortable with, whom I enjoy taking long walks with late at night... I tell myself that I shouldn't harbour expectations of any sort. Neither would I shut myself in and deny any feelings which may come along.

My good friend says he has this feeling that things would happen sooner or later... Well, if it was the me in the past, I would probably be feeling very light-headed, blissful and thinking that this person would be 'The One'... However, the me now just want to enjoy this process of getting to know someone without any expectations, without thinking of where this would lead us to...

I have been very blessed throughout this 23 yrs of existence... I'm always surrounded by people who sincerely care and only want the very best for me. What more can I ask for?

Dear friend, I understand your good intentions and I know you sincerely care for me and want nothing but the best for me... but well, let's not expect anything from this yeah... If things do work out, then let it be a pleasant little surprise... if not, then at least we wouldn't be disappointed and feel short-changed.

Boundaries?

Many times, alot of things in life fall within the grey area... Very seldom do we get very clear & definite black and white answers.

Alot of times, I do not have clear definite answers to the many questions directed at me. Alot of things are also never clear-cut.

Which is why, sometimes, I'd rather feign ignorance about certain things. Not that I'm cowardly or unwilling to deal with stuff... but I just feel that some things are better left unsaid. Certain things when said, spoils everything...

The truth hurts... & I'll never want to hurt anyone... really...

Back from Long Hiatus

Hey there! Yes, I know, I haven't been blogging for a zillion years... thank you very much =)

Oh well, besides being busy with studying, I've not been up to anything interesting recently. Wait a second, watching QUIDAM was something interesting!

Now that I'm very much single again, been up to nothing except for meeting up with some old friends. No one interesting enough to spark off my interest so far...

It's really true what some people say: 'The older you get, the more difficult it is to find someone you love...' If you ask me, I think it's very much a matter of expectations.

When we were younger, we didn't expect anything, we just go with the flow and as a result, any guy that comes along that's alittle nicer, we fall for them. Now that we're all grown up, we know very well, what we want, or for that matter, what we do not want. Thus, finding someone makes me go weak in the knee, go heart-a-fluttering, is as difficult as striking TOTO, every Singaporean's dream! But hey, how often do dreams come true? =p

Something to think about yeah =)